Wednesday, December 07, 2005

I hate this time of the year

I hate Christmas. I hate the forced scurrying around, the fake happiness, the pressure to do all the Christmas-y things.

Or maybe what I really hate is not being in a family situation where Christmas-y things are expected and get done. Because I love Christmas lights, Christmas cards, Christmas parties. I love Midnight Mass, getting my picture taken with Santa, cookie exchanges, and going caroling.

But I married somebody with no family traditions, and no interest in establishing them.

If he really loved me, he would understand how I feel about Christmas lights. If he really loved me, when I tell him that I am depressed about Christmas, instead of telling me that I should just deal with it, he would understand that what I need him to do is go hang some Christmas lights.

Just needed to get that off my chest. Sigh.

Friday, December 02, 2005

Consistency is everything

Ok, figured out that I need to make myself do this everyday. Just like running! And what am I whining about, it's not that hard. Easier than journaling even.

Yesterday I did my weights. Today I ran on the treadmill. Not keeping up well with the diet but it's not a great time of the year for that anyway.

Ordered my holiday greeting cards. Resolution to make myself feel less depressed this holiday, more in tune with the season: do one Christmas-y thing each day. So today was ordering holiday cards. Hooray for me.

Tuesday, November 29, 2005

We can't stand to look at each other

One of my failed attempts to take a holiday photo of the girls yesterday.

The more things change, the more they stay the same

Am trying yet another diet/exercise online program, this time the one offered through Runners' World. Like eDiets & SparkPeople, it offers both meal plans and workout programs. In this case, the meal plans seem simpler and more like the kind of food I would normally buy/eat anyway. The big benefit to this one is the workout program. The exercises are more challenging than what I saw from the other two programs. I did like the food logging features on SparkPeople but in the real world it was a pain in the butt to keep up with it. And the silly point system was not a real incentive for me to participate.

Anyway, trying it out, will see how it goes. To support my weight training efforts, today I bought a simple weight bench and a bunch of new and heavier dumbbells. Set them up right here in my office, so I can easily follow the workout for the day from my computer and not have to go to another room to get it done.

Actually did some obedience training with the dogs for the second day in a row. That's another thing I need to keep up with it, because it makes such a huge difference in the quality of their lives, to say nothing of the possibility that I might actually get a decent performance out of Libby in the obedience ring for a change.

Didn't run today becausee I am still sore from the long one yesterday, but took the girls for a nice hour-long walk around the park. It was cold but sunny.

Monday, November 28, 2005

throckmorton


throckmorton
Originally uploaded by muffintop.
Just playing around with the connection between flickr and blogger.

Figuring it out

After much duress, finally figured out how to get a photo into my profile. Still trying to decide if this is better than the Earthlink blog I tried to start a couple of months ago. Right now I think this will be better if I can get the hang of it. Plus I can easily link it to my Flickr site.

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Trying to figure it out

Still taking baby steps. Trying to see if this is a way I can make myself write.

Attempted to run 15 miles today, last long run before the marathon in a couple of weeks. Only got through 13.775. Felt kinda weak and queasy.

Wondering if this will work any better than the blog I tried to create a couple of months ago. Wondering if I have anything compelling to day. Wondering if I should even bother trying to communicate with the outside world.

Reflections of a slow, fat marathoner